Doctors are required to explain the risks in advance and obtain consent before proceeding with treatment. Of course, I fully understand that this is necessary.

If someone later says, “No one told me about that,” it would only create trouble for everyone involved.

In reality, however, it seems that even very minor risks must be explained. The explanation of risks felt far longer than the explanation of the treatment itself. The sheer volume of information left me more exhausted than I had expected. I only realized this after returning home.

Many of the terms and possibilities mentioned were things one rarely encounters in everyday life. I think I had been holding myself together more tightly than I noticed. It wasn’t that I felt pessimistic. Still, there remained a kind of fatigue that simple optimism could not push away.

Surgery, it seems, is heavier than I had imagined.

Deleting an app and restarting the system —

the body does not work that way.